[ It's a hard to answer question. Very personal too. Samatoki hadn't taken his first time having sex altogether, but it was certainly the first time he'd been on the receiving end. It meant something to him, and following sessions with he and Sen hadn't been transactional at all so much as instinctual and desiring. But it's a complicated and difficult situation, so he had chosen not to answer directly. That he and Samatoki had never talked about it too had given him the impression that it wasn't something they needed to talk about, so it wasn't something he really wanted to. ]
I wasn't a virgin, but it was my first time in that way. I've never been bottom before, but Samatoki didn't want to. I had never had a threesome before, either. We never talked about it much between it happening.
[ He's not looking at Jyuto as he expresses those things. It is a little embarrassing to talk about, but he's not going to lie about it. He does look forward, then look to Jyuto. Maybe Jyuto is just worrying about whether or not Riou is going to be willing? He'll share with him, then. ]
[ He'll have to talk to Samatoki about it later. The whole situation from this side just sounds like Samatoki being an inconsiderate loaf (not new), and enjoyable for Riou or not, it doesn't sound like their third teammate went about moonlacing with much tact.
Riou's words cut through that thought, Jyuto left to his own embarrassment. Is he trying to volunteer? How should one even go about answering this? ]
It isn't relevant to our situation yet. We'll worry about that when the time comes, but you don't have to think about it now. [ Jyuto wants to dismiss it for both of their sakes. ]
Thank you... it must be strange to offer. [ And if it isn't strange, Jyuto resents that he's the only one who finds it as such. ]
[ Riou does not realize in any way that he's getting Samatoki in trouble. He isn't complaining, after all, he's just sharing what happened with Jyuto. He thinks he's being helpful and just answering any questions Jyuto has. He's doing his best to fulfill his duty as a member of MTC.
He wonders if he's said something weird after what Jyuto says. He doesn't always recognize what is and isn't normal to say or do, so he wonders if perhaps Jyuto was made to feel uncomfortable by the offer. Then again, he's probably gone and assumed something he shouldn't have... Riou's lips turn down slightly as he considers the obvious thing he could've missed. ]
[ That's where his thoughts lead him? It's getting even more awkward as Riou suggests a complete stranger in alternative. What, does he not have faith in Jyuto's availability to find his own partners, or something?! A mercy offering? He can attract them on his own, Riou!
It's not at all what Jyuto meant, and he's frowning back at Riou, the reaction even more flustered than before. He can tell there's no intent to veer this conversation in weird directions, so he quickly tries to stabilize it before it gets too strange. ]
You don't need to do that, that's not what I meant when I said it was strange— [ Okay, but now he sounds very, very gay. He isn't personally exclusive to any gender, but fixing this social interaction is going to be difficult. He's clumsy. ] I just don't want you to pity me for the circumstances. I'm not in need of sacrificial sex lambs, and I'm not going to push whatever needs I may have later onto you just because you feel obligated to tend to them. [ Jyuto doesn't want pity fucks! ]
[ Oh. They're having a big miscommunication here, Riou thinks. How does he explain his thought process the right way... ]
I don't think you need me. [ He reaches up and scratches his cheek near his ear, not looking directly at Jyuto now, then runs his hand up to push his hair back for a moment, other hand on his hip as he tries to explain. He actually even described Jyuto as someone who probably does well when trying to correct Samatoki's description to Sen... ] You and Samatoki are too bold to pity, Jyuto. It's not an obligation, just something I'm willing to do.
[ The clarity is of great aid. Is Riou embarrassed too? He's admitted to something pretty forward after all. Even so, Jyuto doesn't want Riou to feel like he should ever have to retract what's been said for fear of ridicule. Strange as it may be, he's flattered by the sentiment. ]
So that's what you meant. That's a compliment coming from you, thank you. [ Always nice to know that one's bold and fuckable. A free ego boost! But... how to they move on from this topic? He wants to take Riou out of this corner. ]
Sorry for getting so up in arms. As you can imagine, I'm very confused. Maybe you can show me this apartment I'm wanted to stay in...? [ Well, there goes the one he picked of his own volition. MTC can't be left without him there to babysit, anymore. ]
[ Riou doesn't fight getting pulled out of the corner here. Jyuto's always pretty good at about that, and not having to be embarrassed isn't something he's going to complain about. So he nods in agreement and starts heading that direction instead of focusing on the previous conversation. ]
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I wasn't a virgin, but it was my first time in that way. I've never been bottom before, but Samatoki didn't want to. I had never had a threesome before, either. We never talked about it much between it happening.
[ He's not looking at Jyuto as he expresses those things. It is a little embarrassing to talk about, but he's not going to lie about it. He does look forward, then look to Jyuto. Maybe Jyuto is just worrying about whether or not Riou is going to be willing? He'll share with him, then. ]
If it's you, I can do whatever you need.
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Riou's words cut through that thought, Jyuto left to his own embarrassment. Is he trying to volunteer? How should one even go about answering this? ]
It isn't relevant to our situation yet. We'll worry about that when the time comes, but you don't have to think about it now. [ Jyuto wants to dismiss it for both of their sakes. ]
Thank you... it must be strange to offer.
[ And if it isn't strange, Jyuto resents that he's the only one who finds it as such. ]
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He wonders if he's said something weird after what Jyuto says. He doesn't always recognize what is and isn't normal to say or do, so he wonders if perhaps Jyuto was made to feel uncomfortable by the offer. Then again, he's probably gone and assumed something he shouldn't have... Riou's lips turn down slightly as he considers the obvious thing he could've missed. ]
I'm sure Sen will help, if you prefer women.
[ Nailed it. ]
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It's not at all what Jyuto meant, and he's frowning back at Riou, the reaction even more flustered than before. He can tell there's no intent to veer this conversation in weird directions, so he quickly tries to stabilize it before it gets too strange. ]
You don't need to do that, that's not what I meant when I said it was strange— [ Okay, but now he sounds very, very gay. He isn't personally exclusive to any gender, but fixing this social interaction is going to be difficult. He's clumsy. ] I just don't want you to pity me for the circumstances. I'm not in need of sacrificial sex lambs, and I'm not going to push whatever needs I may have later onto you just because you feel obligated to tend to them.
[ Jyuto doesn't want pity fucks! ]
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I don't think you need me. [ He reaches up and scratches his cheek near his ear, not looking directly at Jyuto now, then runs his hand up to push his hair back for a moment, other hand on his hip as he tries to explain. He actually even described Jyuto as someone who probably does well when trying to correct Samatoki's description to Sen... ] You and Samatoki are too bold to pity, Jyuto. It's not an obligation, just something I'm willing to do.
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So that's what you meant. That's a compliment coming from you, thank you.
[ Always nice to know that one's bold and fuckable. A free ego boost! But... how to they move on from this topic? He wants to take Riou out of this corner. ]
Sorry for getting so up in arms. As you can imagine, I'm very confused.
Maybe you can show me this apartment I'm wanted to stay in...? [ Well, there goes the one he picked of his own volition. MTC can't be left without him there to babysit, anymore. ]
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This way.